Wednesday, July 23, 2008

So Many Things to Blog About...

I wouldn't be surprised if I have totally lost my readers. Even though my readers are mostly my family, and they kinda just read my blog cause they love me. And they want to see cute pictures of my kids. So, sorry that I haven't blogged before this. I promise to do better.

So, some random thoughts.

I really miss singing in the Mormon Tabernacle Choir, still. It's been more than a year now, but it still surprises me how pained I feel when I remember. Of course, there is so much joy in the memory, too. I really wonder if I'll ever get to have musical experiences like that again. Hopefully I'll get to sing in Heavenly Choirs in the next life, huh? I have been teaching a lot of singing and piano lessons lately, though, and it does feel so satisfying to feel that I'm passing on that knowledge and joy to others. There are few things that give me greater pleasure than watching a student figure out a technique that opens and changes their voice in a beautiful and dramatic way. I love watching their faces, and see the surprise and joy at finding a new voice, refining that very personal part of themselves. I don't think that I'll ever get tired of that.

Do you ever think about the person you were as a teenager or young adult, and sometimes feel like you've lost important parts of who you were? Most of the important things, I think I've retained. But sometimes, I wonder if I've lost some elusive part of me - my zest for life, my intensity and drive. Maybe I'm just tired, because I'm the mother of four young children, and I haven't slept through the night in over a year, and I'm feeling a little melancholy tonight. But, part of me keeps hoping that I'll find it again.

And, onto yet another subject - Ben was called into the bishopric on Sunday - first counselor. The appointment with the Stake President was at 10 a.m., and by 11:15, he'd been sustained and was sitting on the stand. And I was sitting alone with our four children. Needless to say, it was all just a bit overwhelming. Can I just say, that I feel too young to be married to a member of the bishopric? I don't feel nearly wise enough, or together enough in my life to be here. I also want to say, though, that I still can't believe that I'm married to such an incredibly wonderful man. He grows on me everyday, and I liked him a lot to begin with. He really is my better half. I'm so thankful to be married to someone who loves the Lord so much, and is willing to give up his very small amount of free time to serve and to build the Kingdom of God. Not to mention, he's really, really good looking, and a great kisser. Oh, sorry...

And to round off this totally random post, I'm going to add some totally random pictures.



6 comments:

Jim and Brooke said...

Hi Mary! It was so good to see your post! I have such great memories of you and your family!
I'm sorry to hear about your loss in your family. It is very hard to go through. I am also sorry that you arent in the Tabernacle choir anymore. I always looked for you, and saw you a couple of times. You are an amazing photographer, by the way!! Your kids are beautiful!
love,
Brooke

Jim and Brooke said...

Oh, I forgot to answer your question about my family and their blogs. I am the only one. Sorry. Jenna has a website though. You can find it on the bottom of my blog list (on my blog). I have been trying to talk everyone else into starting a blog, because it has been such a great experience for me. I have reconnected with so many of my friends that I wouldn't have otherwise. It has been such a blessing. Hopefully others will come around soon enough.

Joanna said...

You feel young having a husband in the bishopric? I already did it three years ago! But really, one year in a student ward in not much compared to what your family is doing now. Good luck! I know you'll all make it. And most likely receive some awesome blessings in the process.

Nerd Goddess said...

Wait-- did Bekah get glasses? And when did Sarah get all big?

And as overwhelming as it may seem, I have no doubt you and your family will be very blessed because Ben is serving the Lord. I love ya Mary! And you didn't lose me as a reader!

Becky said...

I too was wondering about Bekah's glasses; she looks so distinguished (aka: OLD)!

I also wanted to say I feel just as you do that sometimes I wonder how I lost part of myself somehow. I know I'm a better person now than I was years and years ago--I've grown and matured more. But I still seem to have lost, something. It's hard to put a finger on...

And also, I'm glad to know you love your husband. ;0)

Lara said...

But sometimes, I wonder if I've lost some elusive part of me - my zest for life, my intensity and drive.

I feel the same way. Well, my body does. In my mind and spirit I think it's all still there. But the flesh is weak. And very tired. :)

You did a great job on your photoshoots! Love how everything turned out.